There was a little boy I knew in my life. During His younger years He used to dream to become a doctor when he grows up. He also dream to become a lawyer, and He even dream to become a priest. As a young boy, He simply just want to play, to study, and to be with his family. It seems that everything is alright. He learned to love people that loves Him as a child, very happy and energetic young boy. He grows with too much love from His parents, they live in a simple life but they are happy and contented with their lives.
When he was in his high school years, He realized that He is special among young men in the classroom. He is somehow different from his boys classmates, He is more demure, and feminine way is more clearly can be seen to Him. He realized that He doesn't belong to the group of these young men. He is more comfortable with these young ladies around him. But he always believed that though he is special among young men, he deserves respect, to love and to be loved.
There was a time in his life that he realized that he falls in love with somebody else. Yes, falling in love to somebody else whom can not accept who really he is, a person who has this close mind about his situation, situation as a person who is created special. It seems that he is begging for the love of this person, begging for that small piece of love for him. It seems that he is carrying the burden of the whole world on his shoulder, contented to watch the one he loves with other person whos arms are tied around the body of the one he loves. Seems so sad but life must go on for him. He should not stop himself in pushing to his dream in life.
Sometimes life is so cruel, the only person who can understand Him, of who really he is, his father, was taken away from him. A time that his father must take a rest with our Creator above. He must take now the responsibility as the eldest among three siblings, but how could that be, he believed that he is weak, he is soft, and he has no right to take the responsibility of his father. But still he has no choice but to embrace all these things that happen in his life.
He have to go somewhere else just to help his younger brother and sister in their daily needs. But sometimes it's not easy for him to stand alone on his own feet, he felt that he needs somebody to lend on, but who? To whom will he spent his lonely nights? Who will wipe the tears that are coming from his eyes everytime no one is around? And because of that...he falls again. He falls in the hands of drug addiction, vices and he almost forgot his family, his family of whom are waiting the time that he will be home to be with them.
Maybe, he reach the point that he is tired of his life. Nothing new is happening to him, he was stuck in a dark nights of his life. He decided to make a change with his life, he challenge his own self to renew. He challenge his self to reborn. He continued to walk the straight path that he has build before. He walk with faith and hope in his heart that soon another dawn will come, and another morning will shine upon his face.
Life sometimes so cruel, we don't know when shall we fall, but as long as we have faith in our heart, as long as we still have the courage to stand everytime we fall, that would be the greatest glory we can have in our life. Each one of us is created special in the eyes of the Lord. You might be weak in the eyes of other people but you are the strongest if you can admit who really you are, with no shame in telling them that once, you commit mistakes and you are willing to learn from it.
Now, this young boy has matured enough to face trials in life, he has grown up but still he is searching the young boy in his heart who is contented to play, the young boy who is innocence to face life, the young boy who dreamed the unreachable star, and the young who cries but wipes away the pain in his heart as he wipes the tears that are coming from his eyes. He is still in his journey in life. Searching for the right path for his life. And he is sharing what life means to him in the midst of all the trials he faced in his life.
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