The One Left Behind

"...You turned and walk awayI didn't know what to say I closed my eyes to hide The pain I felt inside I could never understand How love went out of hand And now there's nothing I can do

Though the feeling hasn't passed Sad to say our love didn't lastPlease don't ask me to pretend`Cause I know it's overWhen I'm done forgetting youYou can say what you wanted to Please don't ask me to pretend`Cause I know it's over now

Now I'm left here all alone A heart without a home How will I ever find The love I left behind Once, the days were ours to share Now you don't even careAnd there's still nothing I can do..."

I am spending my weekends at my cousin's house somewhere in Sucat. It was a lazy sunday afternoon, July 27, I am just watching the program of GMA7 "Dear Friends" hosted by Jolina Magdangal and Marvin Agustin. I am not used to watch drama teleserye, telenovela and similar to that. But this one caught my attention.

I am spending my weekends at my cousin's house somewhere in Sucat. It was a lazy sunday afternoon, July 27, I am just watching the program of GMA7 "Dear Friends" hosted by Jolina Magdangal and Marvin Agustin. I am not used to watch drama teleserye, telenovela and similar to that. But this one caught my attention.

It's about a GAY. Primarily, it's a gay story, played by young actor Mark Herras as Eric and his lover Jeremy played by Paolo Contis. Actually, I was not able to start the story, I have started it when the time that Eric (Mark Herras) is asking Jeremy (Paolo Contis) why he is leaving for States, the time when He is asking why can't they be together, why can't they more than just friends, and why can't they be a lovers. And the time that they were caught by some friends who took some videos while they are hugging, letting the girl of Eric watch the video, well...I guess that was a very touchy scene, and I was able to connect the story. It was that Eric is hiding his true self to other people, that he keeps on struggling and keep on fighting his true self. He is trying tide his real identity in the love of a girl but deep inside he loves a man. The story ended when Jeremy have to say good bye to Eric, He will leaving, he is going to the airport to go back to the states. And Eric was left behind with tears in his eyes asking why he is always left behind.

I don't know but this story seems to be always and same story of every gay. Loving somebody, giving your whole self to the one you loved, but at the end, why is it that gays are always left behind? Do we have no rights to love and be loved? Mostly gays are crying at the end because they love a certain person but it always end with a tragedy. Is it a curse for all gays? Is it always the same ending of the story? Why do people can't love a gay? Why can't they accept gays? Why can't they just give even the respect that every gay is longing to have in his life...and why do they caused pains and played the feelings of every gay?

Based on experienced, I love somebody else before and I give my whole life just to work out the relationship, but as usual, I am just dreaming, as if I have no right to fall in love and be loved. And this is the most painful thing, waking up in your dreams that...you are left behind.