Monday, June 22, 2009

After the Day I said Goodbye!

I can't remember how's life brought me here today. I been away before and then I came back, away and now I return. I know it's hard for you to understand what I am talking about since you don't know what happens in my life for the past year. I forget myself, I forget the things that I used to and I forget some people.

Now, I'm here again. I can't say if I really have to stay for a little bit longer but one thing I'm sure, I am stronger than before, I'm ready to face all the challenges that may came into my life. I was once saying that I have to live my life to the fullest but sad to say I live it to the foolest. Well, maybe that's really life, you don't when to say yes and when to say no. Sometimes it's hard to say good bye to all the things that make my life complete but I really have to let go, I realized that I have to love myself more than anything else coz I know I can't love somebody if I don't even know how to love myself.

The day I said goodbye is a symbol of the past that I let go, embracing new life and living it to the best I could. Though sometimes it's hard to start but now I can shout to the whole world that I die and now I live life with so much hope, so much love and so much respect with myself.

Tuesday, September 30, 2008

After 13 Years...


I was blessed with a father whom I think the most perfect man in my life. Living with this man is such a miracle. He always encourage me to go on with my life, He let me soar high and he never let me down. He put his very own wings upon my back just to see me flying high with my own life. I live life to the fullest with the courage and the wisdom of my father. He is full of strength, encouragement, braveness insidehis heart and most of all he has the love that I never found to anyone else.


It was thirteen years ago when left us, when he shares his life to our creator in heaven. I can't forget all those things he left for us, all the teachings in life. Thirteen years ago that I don't see him even in my dreams and that was thirteen years ago when the last time he embrace me and said that I was loved.


September 30, 1995 in the morning when I received a news from my mom telling us that I need to go home immediately because my father was confined in a hospital. That news makes me uneasy and immediately went home since I was living with my grandmom away from my parents. I never thought and never in my mind that I already lost my father midnight of September 29, 1995. My mother is telling me that he was just confined in a hospital to make sure that I will be okay in coming home. Unfortunately, it's too late for me to know the truth that he is gone.


I remember the third night of his wake. I saw him in my dream. He ask me to sit beside him, I know in my dreams that he is gone, I am fully aware in my dreams that he accepted the pain of death. He holds my hands saying that he will never leave us behind, physically he will not be around but he says that he will always be in our heart and then he gave me a hug. He is even saying that I have to take care my little siblings. I did not noticed that the tears in my eyes are falling on his shoulder. He wipe my tears and he told me that he have to go because somebody is waiting him. I can't help myself but to cry everytime I remember that dream, the last dream that I have with my father. I know and I believed that he is good hand and his soul rests in peace.


It's not too late to say how much you love your dad and your mom. Say it while they can hear it. Unlike me, I am just murmuring those words inside my heart and one of the biggest regret that I have in my life is that I was not able to show that I love him, I was not to say that words and now I am just contented to say it within my heart.

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

How to Become a Millionaire

Only few are not dreaming not to become a millionaire. Mostly of us wants to retire with million in our savings account. most of us wants to enjoy life after our retirement. There is no such thing as a secret to become a millionaire, no formula either, it only requires logic and discipline. I’m not yet a millionaire but these things that I have found, for me, are great ways to become one. Getting a millionaire’s mindset.

Stop Senseless Spending - Unfortunately, mostly of us are spending too much on the services and goods that we don’t need much. Even relatively small expense, such as having a cup of premium coffee rather than that of instant coffee. These things can add up or decrease the amount of money you can save.

Fund Retirement Plans ASAP - In general, the earlier you start saving for retirement, the easier it will be to afford, given the number of financial obligations that tend to be incurred at that later period in your life.

Improve Tax Awareness - Sometimes, individuals think that doing their own taxes will save them money. In some cases, they might be right. However, in other cases it may actually end up costing them money because they fail to take advantage of the many deductions available to them. Try to become more educated as far as what types of items are deductible. You should also understand when it makes sense to move away from the standard deduction and start itemizing your return.

Renting Versus Buying - At some point in our lives, many of us rent a home or an apartment because we cannot afford to purchase a home, or because we aren’t sure where we want to live for the longer term. And that’s fine. However, renting is often not a good long-term investment because buying a home is a good way to build equity.

Buying Expensive Cars - There’s nothing wrong with purchasing a luxury vehicle. However, individuals who spend an inordinate amount of their incomes on a vehicle are doing themselves a disservice - especially since this asset depreciates in value so rapidly.

Don’t Sell Yourself Short - Some individuals are extremely loyal to their employers and will stay with them for years without seeing their incomes take a jump. This can be a mistake, as increasing your income is an excellent way to boost your rate of saving. Always keep your eye out for other opportunities and try not to sell yourself short. Work hard and find an employer who will compensate you for your work ethic, skills and experience.

Bottom Line - You don’t have to win the lottery to see seven figures in your bank account. For most people, the only way to achieve this is to save it. You don’t have to live like a pauper to build an adequate nest egg and retire comfortably. If you start early, spend wisely and save diligently, your million dreams are well within reach.

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Time to mend my broken heart

I been away for a while because I just want to escape my real world. I just want to know who really Am I, I am reflecting to my very own self, I have to know myself first before I can face the truth about me. During the time that I am looking back at myself, I found a song that touches my heart and touches my life. A song that made me realized how my life was. That I have already forgotten myself because I love somebody else but it made me cry. Now I have to move on, I have to face the truth that we were not meant to be with each other, that made me realized that I was meant to be alone.



Time to Mend My Broken Heart